Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Day 4

1. The fact that I always have a place to call home because I have people in different places that love me.

2. My nephew Jeff's kisses.

3. Kind people at airports, who just smile and say hi (no not employees, just nice people)

4. Mario Kart, for always being awesome.

5. The little glimmer of hope inside me that is growing day by day, and keeps telling me that one day I will be bigger than I think I am.


- Ashley

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Day 3

1. Realizing so many people are so caring. Someone once told me you attract those that mirror your assets, so to know that so many people care about me must mean that I have given you some sort of care, so thanks for the reciprocation.

2. Breakfast food, particularly pancakes and hash browns, which always seem to cheer me up.

3. Daniel's Jeremih playlist, which he made just for me, and made me dance around the floor the entire floorset.

4. Lafayette park, for bringing me back to such good memories.

5. My favorite red lipstick, for making me look and the mirror and feel happy.

You are what you exude to the world, so give and take smiles.


- Ashley

Wednesday, June 8, 2011

Day 2

Positive thought of the day (Taken from Norman Vincent Peale)

"The way to happiness: keep your heart free from hate, your mind from worry.  Live simply, expect little, give much. Fill your life with love. Scatter sunshine. Forget self, think of others. Do as you would be done by. Try this for a week and you will be survive."

Things I am thankful for today:

1. Finding my "Positive Thinking Everyday" book, which has so many good sentiments like the one above, and fills me with hope whenever I need it. I had been looking for it for some time, and today was my lucky day.

2. The kindness of the people I work with today and the happiness and hope they gave me even after I felt lost.

3. My nephew, Jeff, for having the best telephone manners, and loving me the way an Auntie needs some love.

4. My dad, for finding out that he called my mom to make sure she wasn't worrying too much today.

5. The guy who I totally caught checking me out today, for making me realize that I am still attractive.


- Ashley

Tuesday, June 7, 2011

My First Post

Much of what we do as being on this planet is counted in time. We spend birthdays counting the years of the ones we love, we spend years in school learning and creating our minds. Time can move fast or slow depending on what we doing, and can even stop when a baby is born or a heart gets broken. Memories are just figments of time from the past, and we always see fit to look towards time in the future.

For me, my memory has always been a far better tool than any part of my brain. I have constantly been good at testing for this reason, and I find it easy to quote from books or stories I haven't read in may months or even years. This has gotten me quite far in a scholarly capacity, but I admit that sometimes it has been to my demise. That being said, I have always been a person who spends a lot of time looking into the past for answers, and always the bad side of my past. It has slowly eaten at me over the years, and rather than be able to move into the future, I tend to wallow in the things that I have done or said and not fully understand how to move on.

But then something popped into my head the other day, and it just won't let go - 


And as much as I believe this to now be true, and how much I would like to continue to repeat this in my head, it hasn't fully come to fruition for me to mentally grasp. So now I have this fundamental urge to work towards believing this goal and finding answers for my future, not wallowing in my past.

So today I start this gratitude journal, to find positive energy in the present so I can move on from my past. Everyday I will take the time to write five positive things that have come from that day and use them as fuel for the future. Normally you are not supposed to share your gratitude journal, but why not show people who you are grateful for the things you are grateful for? Plus, I hope that many of you join me on this journey and we can help push each other to strive for positive thinking in our everyday lives.

That being said, I would like to start now. Since this is my first one, and I am very overwhelmed with sadness from this past week of affairs, they will be more focused to those who have helped me really push through this hard time.

My Five things I am grateful for today:

1. My Best friend's Lindsey and Anastasia -

There kindness and passion to find me happiness in a dark time is beyond measure. As quickly as I fell down, they came to pick me up. I am thankful that they are not scared to speak the truth, both positive and negative, and their strength in spirituality is beyond measure. I am so happy to be staying at their house right now, and they have encouraged me so much to get back on my feet and embrace why they call me "Sunny Sunshine." They are beautiful women that I truly admire, and the way they embrace the world is so honorable. I am so happy to call them friends.

2. My Mom -
 Who has stuck with me through everything, even when I thought I didn't deserve her. Being the strong woman she is, she has never stepped in the way of my mistakes. Rather, she has let me make them and encouraged me to move forward and learn. She has been such a positive romodel in my life. Her passion for her friends and family, and for her children's friends and their families is so large, and her outreach has warmed the hearts of so many people. I aspire to be a woman just like my mom, who was so much grace, wisdom, and beauty to give the world. When things got rough, she would always tell me to "grab life by the bootstraps and keep moving." I am, mommy, I promise.

3. My Best friend, Kathleen -
 Who has just gone through a very similar struggle that I am fighting now, and has given me so many good words of wisdom to take as part of my journey. She's a fighter, and her excitement for life is so inspiring. She makes me happy to be alive when I am around her, and I treasure every single memory that she is part of. I am so happy we have stayed friends for so long, and that we get to continue our friendship into the future. 

4. God - Who has carried me through a lot of pain, and whose voice I hear around me now, and who I can feel in the universe around me. I can feel myself understanding that I am a part of his creation and that I am his flesh, and because of that I can perform miracles.

5. My family, for calling, messaging, facebooking, and doing whatever they can to make sure I am ok. I am so privileged to be part of something so caring and unique, and our laughter as a family is the best memory anyone could ask for. You have empowered me with as much confidence as I can muster at this time, but I promise that it is carrying me through, and just know that I am so grateful for the time you have taken to show how much you love me. I love you, too.


- Ashley